A new beginning

Wow! I can sleep again! It's glorious! I haven't been allowed to sleep like this for months! I've been in my pajamas all weekend, pain free without the use of meds for the first time in a long time, and catching up on my dreams. It's good to dream again. I've actually been off of the pain meds for several days and the feeling of recovery has been growing for even longer than that, but it is only just now starting to "sink in". I've been fearful of disappointment.

The hormone therapy seems to be working just as it should, it has given me my life back. I don't know how long that is going to be, but realistically is there any way of knowing how long any of us have? Yes, I have been given an accelerated time frame in that regard but right now that only serves to strengthen my resolve and inspire me to get back to the business of living, and now that I have been given the ability to do that, through this treatment, I can't wait to get started! I may be living on borrowed time but at least I am living, and I plan on paying it forward instead of back.

I am going to continue to spread the word of my story to any one who will listen with the hope that it will help prevent this cancer from occurring in as many men as possible. Beyond that, I am also looking forward to becoming involved with a charitable organization that not only raises awareness but also helps people like me cover the cost of the hormone treatment. The needles required every three months cost $1400.00 each and the daily pills cost $425.00 for three months worth, over $7000.00 annually. Without a good drug plan that can be a huge hit for a lot of people and if it can do for someone else what it's doing for me than I want to help to make it available to as many people as possible. If I can't find an organization that I can "piggyback" onto, one that does what I see needs doing, then I will start my own, something that I'm familiar with, a charitable annual motorcycle ride.

In the meantime, I'm going back to work (modified duties and schedule, I'm not going to rush it) and begin to rebuild my social life by finding someone to share it with me (modified duties and schedule, I'm not going to rush it).

I will continue to post here, although I'm not sure what I will say. However, I have been told, on occasion, that I can be quite verbose so I'm sure I'll think of something.