Back again.

Living is a funny thing when it's the only thing you are doing.  There is a difference between simply living and actually having a life.  Being in my current condition, which is essentially, disabled, my days just flow together into one long day that never really starts or ends.  Being out of the "rat race" does some strange things to your perspective.  I`ll get back to that in a minute

A quick update on how things are going from the medical side of my life, there is little change.  I'm still sleeping like a cat (hence very little blogging, among other things) I have to use a cane to walk now, and glasses to read.  Steps are a problem, and I can`t drive right now because of my eyes, but I have been feeling an improvement in my circumstances.  It could have something to do with my current drug intake.  I just started a new treatment which is four rather large pills once daily.  So, as of today, I am consuming 39 pills every 24 hours!  (and if I don`t take them my body feels it)  This can be tricky business to stay on top of, especially with my long sleeping hours.
Sleeping through my pain killer intake is the worst for me personally but irrespective of that there are still four children that require as much attention as I can give and I also have to find time eat.  I went down to 135lbs when I was on chemo.  I am currently at 140lbs and holding.  I have been trying to increase my caloric intake with supplements and energy drinks but again, my increased need for sleep hinders my ability to stay on top of it.  There is also the fact that my appetite is weak and the numbness in my face and lips (the radiation did not work as well as hoped, also related to my eye problem) can discourage me sometimes from eating as much as I should.

It amazes me how I essentially have free reign with my 24 hour days and yet sometimes still don`t have enough time to do everything that needs doing.  We take for granted our ability to do so many things and use that ability to distract ourselves from life by keeping ourselves busy all the time so we don`t have to think about the important stuff, y'know, life, the universe, and everything.

I wanted to expound on this a little further but my eyes are just not cooperating so I'm gonna cut it short and try again later. 

Cheers to all, I hope life is being good to you.